hmm... Interesting. I went the other way. I was always a strong athiest type and absolutely couldn't bring myself to believe and then the unbelievable happened and I was saved by the almighty himself and unded up believing in what I had thought couldn't be believed.
I would try to explain how but im sure id look like a fool trying to explain it to you if I didn't have 3 hours to really iron it out.
I found that the simulation hypothesis allows you to stay rationalist and still believe in an higher order, in providence and that this whole clown show is there for a reason, even if we haven't figured out what that reason is.
Because someone would have to be the architect of such a simulation, and he would have created it with intent. It fits amazingly with christianity, some gnostic sects almost said it out clearly.
I. There is but one only,(a) living, and true God:(b) who is infinite in being and perfection,(c) a most pure spirit,(d) invisible,(e) without body, parts,(f) or passions,(g) immutable,(h) immense,(i) eternal,(k) incomprehensible,(l) almighty,(m) most wise,(n) most holy,(o) most free,(p) most absolute,(q) working all things according to the counsel of His own immutable and most righteous will,(r) for His own glory;(s) most loving,(t) gracious, merciful, long-suffering, abundant in goodness and truth, forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin;(u) the rewarder of them that diligently seek Him;(w) and withal, most just and terrible in His judgments,(x) hating all sin,(y) and who will by no means clear the guilty.(z)
(a) Deut. 6:4; I Cor. 8:4, 6.
(b) I Thess. 1:9; Jer. 10:10.
(c) Job 11:7, 8, 9; Job 26:14.
(d) John 4:24.
(e) I Tim. 1:17.
(f) Deut. 4:15, 16; John 4:24, with Luke 24:39.
(g) Acts 14:11, 15.
(h) James 1:17; Mal. 3:6.
(i) I Kings 8:27; Jer. 23:23, 24.
(k) Ps. 90:2; I Tim. 1:17.
(l) Ps. 145:3.
(m) Gen. 17:1; Rev. 4:8.
(n) Rom. 16:27.
(o) Isa. 6:3; Rev. 4:8.
(p) Ps. 115:3.
(q) Exod. 3:14.
(r) Eph. 1:11.
(s) Prov. 16:4; Rom. 11:36.
(t) I John 4:8, 16.
(u) Exod. 34:6, 7.
(w) Heb. 11:6.
(x) Neh. 9:32, 33.
(y) Ps. 5:5, 6.
(z) Nah. 1:2, 3; Exod. 34:7.
I tried forcing myself to believe for about 5 years solid. Didn't work.
hmm... Interesting. I went the other way. I was always a strong athiest type and absolutely couldn't bring myself to believe and then the unbelievable happened and I was saved by the almighty himself and unded up believing in what I had thought couldn't be believed.
I would try to explain how but im sure id look like a fool trying to explain it to you if I didn't have 3 hours to really iron it out.
I would love to hear your story, even if it is just summarized in a PM here on .win - I believe in god, but I have doubts from time to time.
Maybe you're just a fool
I found that the simulation hypothesis allows you to stay rationalist and still believe in an higher order, in providence and that this whole clown show is there for a reason, even if we haven't figured out what that reason is. Because someone would have to be the architect of such a simulation, and he would have created it with intent. It fits amazingly with christianity, some gnostic sects almost said it out clearly.
I'm at the point where I know too much to believe in god, and I know too much to be an atheist. Shit.
Try something from 1647:
Chapter II. Of God, and of the Holy Trinity.
I. There is but one only,(a) living, and true God:(b) who is infinite in being and perfection,(c) a most pure spirit,(d) invisible,(e) without body, parts,(f) or passions,(g) immutable,(h) immense,(i) eternal,(k) incomprehensible,(l) almighty,(m) most wise,(n) most holy,(o) most free,(p) most absolute,(q) working all things according to the counsel of His own immutable and most righteous will,(r) for His own glory;(s) most loving,(t) gracious, merciful, long-suffering, abundant in goodness and truth, forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin;(u) the rewarder of them that diligently seek Him;(w) and withal, most just and terrible in His judgments,(x) hating all sin,(y) and who will by no means clear the guilty.(z)
(a) Deut. 6:4; I Cor. 8:4, 6. (b) I Thess. 1:9; Jer. 10:10. (c) Job 11:7, 8, 9; Job 26:14. (d) John 4:24. (e) I Tim. 1:17. (f) Deut. 4:15, 16; John 4:24, with Luke 24:39. (g) Acts 14:11, 15. (h) James 1:17; Mal. 3:6. (i) I Kings 8:27; Jer. 23:23, 24. (k) Ps. 90:2; I Tim. 1:17. (l) Ps. 145:3. (m) Gen. 17:1; Rev. 4:8. (n) Rom. 16:27. (o) Isa. 6:3; Rev. 4:8. (p) Ps. 115:3. (q) Exod. 3:14. (r) Eph. 1:11. (s) Prov. 16:4; Rom. 11:36. (t) I John 4:8, 16. (u) Exod. 34:6, 7. (w) Heb. 11:6. (x) Neh. 9:32, 33. (y) Ps. 5:5, 6. (z) Nah. 1:2, 3; Exod. 34:7.