We don't well at least I try not to. It's gotten very bizarre actually. It doesn't matter what I talk about he thinks it's all about the same thing, CONSPIRACIES... Soo frustrating! He is very competitive & has dug into "everything u say & think is wrong cuz ur nuts" about literally everything!. I gave up a long time ago & now just wait. I know slowly but surly he will see things the way they are.

It doesn't change the fact that as a data collector that loves discussing ideas, understanding anything & debating all topics I no longer have an equal to brain poke. With everything I have considered since 2015 it has left me at times desperate for a firm footing in reality. Also, as someone very comfortable in my skin & in my company social encounters have never been my cup of tea however in all of this lets just say the unfamiliar notion of loneliness has become the only constant in my present state of being.

I will admit when he shows me a meme or an article or when he tries to explain a new truth that someone else presented to him 1 that I had attempted to years before a lil fire grows in my belly. I have never been 1 for I told you so's & although many will be due I only look forward to one. And that one appears closer & closer by the day. He is a good man. He literally thinks I'm nuts & yet has supported & protected me throughout this journey. I just get sad because I wish we coud have done it together.