Ah my friend, you're not alone. Worse yet my wife is the TDS poster gal. On top of that I have major depression (diagnosed) So add that on top of having this rug yanked from under your feet. Don't know where this is gonna end up, these last four years have kept me going with the hope that Satan would not prevail. So I'm keeping to myself. I'm the same as you. I pick up the phone or tablet, ask myself, do you really wanna read anything? but it's like a train wreck or plane crash-apalling but you can't stop staring. I won't talk about anger-I'd be getting a visit.