You can replace this name with someone more modern, but this literally sounds like when my teenaged sister, who had a crush on Leonardo DiCaprio decades ago, was in tears because he started dating Kristen Zang and she was convinced she was his biggest fan and now she would never have a chance with him.

Fucking grow up and quit crying about some people who don't even know you exist, who never owed you a goddamn thing. Are you seriously tying this much of your self-worth to the opinions of someone who you've never met?