You are not alone Fren. I find the more I embrace God’s Truth and promises, the more God provides His peace and daily joy. We are told the woes of the world will increase, and sin abounds until God’s return. That can be very depressing to watch. Good news, God knows how the story ends (He comes back) and has given us insight so that we can live free from fear. It took me many years and mistakes in life to learn to really trust God has my best interest in mind. I might not understand why things work the way God tells me to do them but so far God’s ways have proven trustworthy. My ways, not so much. God’s Mercy is so great He is still warning those willing to listen. I pray this isn’t our last warning. Only time will tell. Praying God will wrap you in His peace that goes beyond all human understanding.