I told her I’m on a journey for truth in all things. I told her I’m quite fine and lucid. No mention of God, just me trying too be better.

I had too make sure and explain I’m not losing my mind or wanting harmful things done, whole red flag thing.

I told her she won’t understand because I don’t yet.

Before that, I talked with myself and begin too sob a little.

I kept feeling like this is what it’s like when God is let in, I don’t know.

I’m sitting here now alone and balling, but I’ve never felt like this ever when I have felt joy. This type of joy wasn’t there with my first born. I can’t explain it.

I have not felt this happy in several years.

She doesn’t know the God part yet. I’m do t know either.

This place has helped me.