i'm so sorry that you're going thru this. i lost my dad in august. he was a huge trump supporter, and i feel the same way you do - i have an obligation. i'll never forget back in 2016 when he voted for trump. i didn't. i voted independent. we all knew trump didn't stand a chance and that hillary was going to win because she rigged it that way. my dad went to bed before it was over, but i stayed up and watched trump win. i immediately sent him an email with a christmassy picture of trump, and the caption "it's the most wonderful time..... in eight years". he called me as soon as he got it, and we laughed and just kept saying i can't believe he did it, i can't believe he won. he was so stoked. this year was the first time in my life i changed my voter registration to republican. and the vote that trump didn't get from me in 2016, he got from me in 2020. he lost my dad's vote, but he got mine instead. sure felt good. sending you love and prayers and my most heartfelt condolences as you grieve, and wishing you the best of luck with everything you have to do.