I have nobody. Im either insane, a cult member, and/or a hateful bigot to my "friends" and family. Noone will speak to me for the great crime of supporting Trump.
I logged in to say this. You are not alone brother, this is going to sound dumb but just read this once and then you can disagree with me forever.
I am in a dark place as well, very dark. Darkest of my fucking life dark. I almost took my own life 6 months ago, did the whole go live at a psych ward. They gave me pills to basically sedate me because of the incident.
I have to fucking believe I’m not alone.
I have to believe that the hand life dealt me is like this. “I thought I had a royal flush, but this pain we feel has to be the veil uncovering.
I turn 30 soon. I cannot speak to my family. I cannot speak truthfully to anyone but about 8 people in my life. All schoolmates, the usual.
I have to logically force myself to believe this is Real life, and I was fooled by my culture, state, family.
But I am DAMN GOD DAMN FUCKING SURE I AM NOT ALONE.
Because if I am alone, I’m fucking out.
I mean physically I’m fucking out before we get rounded up. I’ll go to Poland fuck it I’ll do it tomorrow with my savings. I won’t even sell my fucking shit.
I am sorry friend.
I am at a loss like you, I don’t sleep, nor eat. I can’t function without pills to pacify me.
Don’t lose hope, I’m reading your comment. You are not alone. How many others are reading this and thinking this same fucking thing. You aren’t alone.
That fact may not help much, because we aren’t physically fucking there but.
I have nobody. Im either insane, a cult member, and/or a hateful bigot to my "friends" and family. Noone will speak to me for the great crime of supporting Trump.
Hey,
I logged in to say this. You are not alone brother, this is going to sound dumb but just read this once and then you can disagree with me forever.
I am in a dark place as well, very dark. Darkest of my fucking life dark. I almost took my own life 6 months ago, did the whole go live at a psych ward. They gave me pills to basically sedate me because of the incident.
I have to fucking believe I’m not alone.
I have to believe that the hand life dealt me is like this. “I thought I had a royal flush, but this pain we feel has to be the veil uncovering.
I turn 30 soon. I cannot speak to my family. I cannot speak truthfully to anyone but about 8 people in my life. All schoolmates, the usual.
I have to logically force myself to believe this is Real life, and I was fooled by my culture, state, family.
But I am DAMN GOD DAMN FUCKING SURE I AM NOT ALONE.
Because if I am alone, I’m fucking out.
I mean physically I’m fucking out before we get rounded up. I’ll go to Poland fuck it I’ll do it tomorrow with my savings. I won’t even sell my fucking shit.
I am sorry friend.
I am at a loss like you, I don’t sleep, nor eat. I can’t function without pills to pacify me.
Don’t lose hope, I’m reading your comment. You are not alone. How many others are reading this and thinking this same fucking thing. You aren’t alone.
That fact may not help much, because we aren’t physically fucking there but.
YOU. ARE. NOT ALONE.
I hope this makes sense to you.