I logged in to say this. You are not alone brother, this is going to sound dumb but just read this once and then you can disagree with me forever.
I am in a dark place as well, very dark. Darkest of my fucking life dark. I almost took my own life 6 months ago, did the whole go live at a psych ward. They gave me pills to basically sedate me because of the incident.
I have to fucking believe I’m not alone.
I have to believe that the hand life dealt me is like this. “I thought I had a royal flush, but this pain we feel has to be the veil uncovering.
I turn 30 soon. I cannot speak to my family. I cannot speak truthfully to anyone but about 8 people in my life. All schoolmates, the usual.
I have to logically force myself to believe this is Real life, and I was fooled by my culture, state, family.
But I am DAMN GOD DAMN FUCKING SURE I AM NOT ALONE.
Because if I am alone, I’m fucking out.
I mean physically I’m fucking out before we get rounded up. I’ll go to Poland fuck it I’ll do it tomorrow with my savings. I won’t even sell my fucking shit.
I am sorry friend.
I am at a loss like you, I don’t sleep, nor eat. I can’t function without pills to pacify me.
Don’t lose hope, I’m reading your comment. You are not alone. How many others are reading this and thinking this same fucking thing. You aren’t alone.
That fact may not help much, because we aren’t physically fucking there but.
You ever have a bad day and TRULY need send me your phone number on that day. We will have a real talk
I’ll tell you how I make it, or appear to other humans as a 30 year old man that doesn’t cries perpetually almost anytime he is alone
But really bro ppl like me understand. I never want a human to feel like me, cause it’s fucked.
If you need advice or just to vent I’m your dude. If you need it, if you just need some pep in your step.
I prayed for you, people on here pray for others all the time. You may not believe that, it’s ok we all still love you. We don’t fucking care and put ppl in boxes.
The fact your heart is pumping blood, means you are the same as me. Hold Fast brother
And I will not put women at the end of it.
Because because my best friends I act like I do around all of my “bro’s”. So you are all my bro’s, I don’t care if you’re a 60 year old woman. Sup bro
Hey,
I logged in to say this. You are not alone brother, this is going to sound dumb but just read this once and then you can disagree with me forever.
I am in a dark place as well, very dark. Darkest of my fucking life dark. I almost took my own life 6 months ago, did the whole go live at a psych ward. They gave me pills to basically sedate me because of the incident.
I have to fucking believe I’m not alone.
I have to believe that the hand life dealt me is like this. “I thought I had a royal flush, but this pain we feel has to be the veil uncovering.
I turn 30 soon. I cannot speak to my family. I cannot speak truthfully to anyone but about 8 people in my life. All schoolmates, the usual.
I have to logically force myself to believe this is Real life, and I was fooled by my culture, state, family.
But I am DAMN GOD DAMN FUCKING SURE I AM NOT ALONE.
Because if I am alone, I’m fucking out.
I mean physically I’m fucking out before we get rounded up. I’ll go to Poland fuck it I’ll do it tomorrow with my savings. I won’t even sell my fucking shit.
I am sorry friend.
I am at a loss like you, I don’t sleep, nor eat. I can’t function without pills to pacify me.
Don’t lose hope, I’m reading your comment. You are not alone. How many others are reading this and thinking this same fucking thing. You aren’t alone.
That fact may not help much, because we aren’t physically fucking there but.
YOU. ARE. NOT ALONE.
I hope this makes sense to you.
Thank you. It does make sense.
Hey man, really.
You ever have a bad day and TRULY need send me your phone number on that day. We will have a real talk
I’ll tell you how I make it, or appear to other humans as a 30 year old man that doesn’t cries perpetually almost anytime he is alone
But really bro ppl like me understand. I never want a human to feel like me, cause it’s fucked.
If you need advice or just to vent I’m your dude. If you need it, if you just need some pep in your step.
I prayed for you, people on here pray for others all the time. You may not believe that, it’s ok we all still love you. We don’t fucking care and put ppl in boxes.
The fact your heart is pumping blood, means you are the same as me. Hold Fast brother
And I will not put women at the end of it.
Because because my best friends I act like I do around all of my “bro’s”. So you are all my bro’s, I don’t care if you’re a 60 year old woman. Sup bro
Thank you, i know how you feel. There is some comfort knowing its not just me feeling this way.