I just feel like I am living my life with the purpose to lose, I don't want to say too much out in the open on this thread but I just feel like I am subconsciously trying to purposefully fail in life.
For the past 4 months I've been drinking every day, I have caused arguments that were my fault with no apologies, I have hated on the people who have always been there for me. I feel so fucking selfish.
I have been wasting the money I've worked so hard to save for the past 3 years I just don't know what to do anymore.
Second the Peterson and doing easy stuff like, no shit, drinking more water and taking some vitamin d and b.
Much love, God forgives all, even me. Even you.
Even though he refers to 'cookie cutter' stuff, sometimes you need to just reset and get back to basics. Fundamentals.
Pick 1 thing. Just 1 thing to do every day, that you need to do, but haven't been. Could be as simple as brushing your teeth. Or, not drinking. Just pick one. And do it. Stick with it. Do not stop.
Then, add another thing. And another thing after that. This is how discipline is forged. As you succeed at doing these simple things, everyday, without fail, you will find that slowly, but surely, the rest of it has started to fall in line. Like magic.
Im not gonna sugarcoat shit for you. I dont blame you. Lots are in the same boat. Be happy you arent so pathetic that you decide to become a meme. Thats what we should ALL be proud of. We didnt become a crying bitch compilation. ❤ you. DONT FUCKING KILL YOURSELF!
For what it’s worth, This is a normal symptom of depression and I found that when i suffered from these feelings that the underlying cause was lack of purpose. You feel like anything you do is destined for failure and so you set your expectations for failure and validate your self worthlessness when it happens.
I can’t offer any specific advice, but watch some Jordan Peterson videos and maybe read his 12 rules for life. I think he has a very good message for men. Also know that you have value, and there is worth in sacrifice and righteousness and virtue.
Absolutely quit drinking. Start doing something; anything when you get up. Cleaning, whatever if you dont have any money to spend on projects. Its motivating to accomplish something, even something small when youre coming out of the hole. Lose yourself in that task. When its done, find another. After youve finished a few, start apologizing to people that you hurt. You will feel freed by it.
I just feel like I am living my life with the purpose to lose, I don't want to say too much out in the open on this thread but I just feel like I am subconsciously trying to purposefully fail in life.
For the past 4 months I've been drinking every day, I have caused arguments that were my fault with no apologies, I have hated on the people who have always been there for me. I feel so fucking selfish.
I have been wasting the money I've worked so hard to save for the past 3 years I just don't know what to do anymore.
Second the Peterson and doing easy stuff like, no shit, drinking more water and taking some vitamin d and b. Much love, God forgives all, even me. Even you.
Sleep, sunlight and hydration are so simple but so underrated for mental and emotional stability.
This man right here.
Even though he refers to 'cookie cutter' stuff, sometimes you need to just reset and get back to basics. Fundamentals.
Pick 1 thing. Just 1 thing to do every day, that you need to do, but haven't been. Could be as simple as brushing your teeth. Or, not drinking. Just pick one. And do it. Stick with it. Do not stop.
Then, add another thing. And another thing after that. This is how discipline is forged. As you succeed at doing these simple things, everyday, without fail, you will find that slowly, but surely, the rest of it has started to fall in line. Like magic.
Im not gonna sugarcoat shit for you. I dont blame you. Lots are in the same boat. Be happy you arent so pathetic that you decide to become a meme. Thats what we should ALL be proud of. We didnt become a crying bitch compilation. ❤ you. DONT FUCKING KILL YOURSELF!
For what it’s worth, This is a normal symptom of depression and I found that when i suffered from these feelings that the underlying cause was lack of purpose. You feel like anything you do is destined for failure and so you set your expectations for failure and validate your self worthlessness when it happens.
I can’t offer any specific advice, but watch some Jordan Peterson videos and maybe read his 12 rules for life. I think he has a very good message for men. Also know that you have value, and there is worth in sacrifice and righteousness and virtue.
Absolutely quit drinking. Start doing something; anything when you get up. Cleaning, whatever if you dont have any money to spend on projects. Its motivating to accomplish something, even something small when youre coming out of the hole. Lose yourself in that task. When its done, find another. After youve finished a few, start apologizing to people that you hurt. You will feel freed by it.
Are you a religious person?