So I finally found places like thedonald and parler and other .win sites where I still don’t have friends but I feel slightly more included, I get upvotes, I don’t get hated on like I have all my life just because I have a differing opinion on life and society to others on social media.
That’s all I seem to do wrong is have a “bad opinion” and that gets me hated. I feel so alone right now and I’m guessing so do millions of others and now I’m seeing the last few places I felt accepted being removed.
Am I a bad person? I’ve not hurt anyone, I may have said/wrote things people don’t agree with but I never attack someone, I never try to cancel someone, I love discussion and going back and forth with others to find out the differences in opinion we all have in this wonderful diverse world. I love people, race and religion doesn’t even cross my mind, I don’t want to see harm brought to anyone. I just want somewhere to go where I don’t feel like an outcast anymore.
I’m very lucky I’m not suicidal because this world we are being dragged into is going to kill so many others like myself, I feel so sad and worried of what is coming. I just wish these big tech companies could show a little compassion towards those like me who just want to fit in, want to find friends, want to feel accepted.
We have all learned that this world is a very diverse place and we have all learned to accept that’s how it is but now those exact same things we have learned are being used to attack a single group of people. People like myself. This goes against “accepting others” and “hate crimes” because I feel so hated and unaccepted right now that I’m scared to even talk and now I’m even being gagged from talking.
A wise man once told me “opinions are like arseholes, we’ve all got one”. Is their arsehole worth more than mine?
tldr; I’m depressed and lonely and big tech are adding to that loneliness and I thank sites like this for helping me feel not so lonely in a very desperate time.
find your external locus of control! The left side is more miserable because they see peoples actions and words and an attack on them and inner stress. Try reacting to what people say and do as what can you do and if things are just a dig at people like us, then fuck them and keep doing the right thing for you, your country, and peers. Trumps party has been so inclusive and really encapsulates a base with such wide ranging opinions on many things. The difference is we will listen and even debate back and forth without going low. If you want more opportunity, freedom, and prosperity for everybody, then you are with family and we want to help everybody live out there best live and find life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness if they can understand personal responsibility and their suffering is an obligation for others to fix and respect! <3
The internet was once a safe haven for outcasts like me, now I’m an outcast on the very place I called home. So I guess you’re right and I need to find a new place in my mind to feel comfortable and at home but I’ve been on the internet since 1998, it’s hard to just give it up.
I am not necessarily telling you to give up the internet but I think stress either slowly depletes us or empowers us. Next time something gives you that cortisol on the internet respond to it with the mentality of how can I use these emotions to jumpstart something that will benefit me or I can act on in my lives interest. If the answer is not really anything than recognize it for what it is and that retention or surrender to that stress is what has weakened you to where you are at now. The realization of our humanity and the role of emotions allows us to capitalize off of them or acknowledge the pointlessness and consequences of that mood carrying into or cognitive thoughts and further thoughts. Rumination during depression is one of mans biggest enemies and this Covid/ Censoring BS has turned up the heat on almost everyone.\
I am trying, honestly. I just needed to get this off my chest. My goal is a campervan and getting away from the internet on the weekends and spending time in nature. Even though lockdown is trying to prevent me from doing so, I’m not going to let that stand in my way, after all my campervan will be my ‘home’ so technically wherever it is parked is considered my home, even if it’s 10 meters away from the beautiful ocean on my favourite beach. I just need to keep working and saving before Covid kills off the construction industry which I feel is coming very soon.
Good! my first advice is try to reset your circadian rhythm. Find some natural sunlight to start your day, and maybe wear some blue light blocking glasses if you are using technology after Sun down. Helps the Human inside of you reset.