So I finally found places like thedonald and parler and other .win sites where I still don’t have friends but I feel slightly more included, I get upvotes, I don’t get hated on like I have all my life just because I have a differing opinion on life and society to others on social media.
That’s all I seem to do wrong is have a “bad opinion” and that gets me hated. I feel so alone right now and I’m guessing so do millions of others and now I’m seeing the last few places I felt accepted being removed.
Am I a bad person? I’ve not hurt anyone, I may have said/wrote things people don’t agree with but I never attack someone, I never try to cancel someone, I love discussion and going back and forth with others to find out the differences in opinion we all have in this wonderful diverse world. I love people, race and religion doesn’t even cross my mind, I don’t want to see harm brought to anyone. I just want somewhere to go where I don’t feel like an outcast anymore.
I’m very lucky I’m not suicidal because this world we are being dragged into is going to kill so many others like myself, I feel so sad and worried of what is coming. I just wish these big tech companies could show a little compassion towards those like me who just want to fit in, want to find friends, want to feel accepted.
We have all learned that this world is a very diverse place and we have all learned to accept that’s how it is but now those exact same things we have learned are being used to attack a single group of people. People like myself. This goes against “accepting others” and “hate crimes” because I feel so hated and unaccepted right now that I’m scared to even talk and now I’m even being gagged from talking.
A wise man once told me “opinions are like arseholes, we’ve all got one”. Is their arsehole worth more than mine?
tldr; I’m depressed and lonely and big tech are adding to that loneliness and I thank sites like this for helping me feel not so lonely in a very desperate time.
Reach out where though? Everything is getting closed down and we are getting bottle necked into one of the big techs machines of hate. It feels like there’s no hiding from it.
I don't know if religion is your thing, but have you tried something like that?
I was never christened, I have been anti religion most of my life because of how much hate and anger I see come from it with wars etc but this last year has really made me wonder if I should find a god, but I want to find my own god, not one that’s already out there, i want to find my own personal Jesus, one that speaks to just me. I’ve taken many psychedelics in the past and had so many spiritual visits with godlike entities that I feel maybe, just maybe there is someone out there for me. I just need to find him.