My dad has been sober for 38 years. My mom told me how mean and angry he always was. She told him straight on that she would leave him and he quite cold turkey.Hold the fucking line for your future! You will not be disappointed. Tell that devil you will not let him destroy you again. You are strong and an amazing person to tell your story. I will pray for you tonight my friend.... the best is yet to come of your life....trust in God!