I've been so close to killing myself so many times and so many ways I've lost count. Yet I'm still here and looking back even with not being where I'd like to be still at 37 I Thank God im still here and didn't give up so easily. I was the black sheep and my father fucking hated me and even though he beat me I could take that all day as a kid but what really damaged me was his mental abuse and his spoken hatred of me. Sometimes its better to have lived with no fatheror mother at all than to live with 1 who hurts you mentally or physically..js. Yet I still love him and forgave him as he died in 2016 we were not on speaking terms when he died. I regret a ton in my life but somehow God has gotten me thru so many failures and so many bad times where I thought I'd never make it past 25 years old yet im 37. And I openly spoke of my hate if my life. Im sure there is people in my family that still expect me to fail a final time and commit suicide as if it is expected of me the middle child. The black sheep. I'm still here and honestly finding and believing in God and fearing him is needed. I have spots in my heart that have felt empty for so long. Some spots still empty in my heart but it is filling up with the holy spirit. Trust me. Turn to God. Dont give up. And may this inspire you to not give up on Trump and PEOPLE so easily in the future but I will forgive you and many others will too as we understand the fog of war and lack of understanding spiritual phenomenon. Good night guys and gals. Stay safe and try to keep the Armor of God on thru the toughest of times. Its not over til God says so! Amen 🙏 ❤