The grim reality of everything going on and the current state of our country is really getting to me.
Conservatives and Republicans have been reduced to a handful of platforms to share their grievances and concerns about pretty much everything. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat, etc. all feel so pointless. I feel like I have no voice, my "friends" openly mock Republicans, Conservatives, and "Trumpers." What I thought were once kind, decent people are openly mocking, censoring, and even in some situations, calling for the death of Trump supporters. This is so depressing. How did we let it get to this?
I, and millions of others weren't even in DC on the 6th yet we're all feeling the same persecution, demonization, and censorship from those on the other side of the aisle. They talk about healing and unification then call their opponents Nazis and Supremacists. It's all so discouraging and has truly been a test of faith.
My self-esteem and confidence have never been so low. I suffer from severe agoraphobia and PTSD and these past few months have made it harder and harder to re-enter society. On top of already dealing with familial and financial issues as I try to navigate through this hellscape we call the world now, it makes me want to cry to see the way some of my friends have treated some people just for modestly supporting Trump. I feel as if I no longer have a place in the world, where my "friends" look at me like I'm a racist or a Nazi or whatever buzzword they feel like using. For the record, I don't even share political stuff on social media all too much, it's just discouraging seeing people who you thought were your friends demonize millions of people over political differences.
It's just so depressing seeing the direction the world is going and low people are willing to go because of their hatred for Trump. I've never seen anything like it as a 20-something person in my life, but I really don't want anything to do with it anymore. We live in a sick world full of sick people and I want off this sick, sick merry-go-round.
I so feel for you, fren. Your PTSD will be compounding your reasoning and then feeding off how you feel. Try fifteen minute stints of finding something to do and narrate your way through it. Tidy a drawer, a shelf, your movie collection, your clothes, etc etc, and talk your way through the task as you are doing it. For 15 minutes. Start reading fiction, where you are reading about someone else's life... nothing that spikes your suspense receptors. Again... 15 minutes only. A book in the hand is better than a screen. Make a cuppa, sit, and even use a throw blanket so that as you're prepping for your read, your head is already narrating you through it. The point is... withdraw from the drama of what's both consuming you and keeping your pstd on red-alert. These small changes won't alter the way the world is around you, but with a proper resolve in yourself to get off the merry-go-round they will make a good difference... and your head should be better for it.
Disclaimer: I'm not a shrink or a doctor. Just a regular ole maga pede trying to help another.