His issue was that he has a desperate desire to help the poor, but couldn't concieve any other way to uplift them than Socialism, which he also knew from experience, didn't work.

So it created a dissonance inside him where almost all of his professional work was his honest, intellectual side bitterly attacking Socialism in practice, while still believing emotionally and naively that some manifestation could work.

I honestly think if Orwell could see the state if the poor in the West today, he'd be a Capitalist. The days of 60-hour weeks in a mineshaft just to barely get by are long gone.