As I sit in my truck and watch my oldest boy walk my youngest boy into his basketball game, donning their masks, (Required for entry and to play), I am really struggling to stay non-compliant. I still refuse to wear it, but I am missing my sons first year of high school basketball, and my other kids first games of basketball at this point. I wont go into places that require masks because 1. I dont believe in it. 2. I dont do well with confrontation. (Anger issues from WAAAY back). I dont want to get my kids in trouble, or end up in jail when I knock someone's teeth out over me not wearing one. Its starting to take a toll on me. My kids want to do things and I won't.I feel like I'm being selfish sometimes, but I dont know. Am I a fool for hoping things go back to "normal". Because no one in my family is getting the vaccine, I wont allow it. Anyway, I cant really organize my thoughts real well right now, so, thanks if you read this whole thing. Just needed an outlet and you pedes are it for now.