I am 35 with a wife and 2 young kids and really thinking hard of joining the guard in Florida. I'm not quite sure why but I woke up early yesterday with this on my mind and started looking up info. I don't want to do it but I have a feeling that I must do it. I know it's gonna be hard preparing for the asvab along with training for bmt while working a full-time. I just read that deployment overseas is possible, and with the new presidency, war is almost inevitable. I don't have a material reason to make this decision just a bunch of cliché sounding answer so I've avoided trying to explain to my wife my reasoning. She says she supports me but needs to understand and I have no idea what to say to her that doesn't seem like some goofy/whacky shit. Deep down I feel like this is something I need to self-improve. I want to acquire discipline, humility, and a number of other things I feel I lack or could improve but feel ashamed of even mentioning that to anyone because it feels like I'd be admitting that I haven't conducted my life properly and I'm trying to slap a bandaid on it. Can anyone help me out? Talk me out of it, or convince me to proceed but I need advice. I dont want to disappoint my family but I want to be a better man and I think the military can help me with that.