It all started when my girlfriend of 6+ years decided to fuck this other guy she on on New Year's Eve (actually, I think he took advantage of her and fucked her when she was too intoxicated to consent) that she knew. I decided to let it go since she told me she still wanted to be with me and that it was a mistake. Also, we had broken up a few days prior, so technically it wasn't cheating. However, we do have a pattern of "breaking up" and then getting back together a few days later. So even if it technically wasn't cheating, the time frame was so short that it's basically cheating. Anyways, I decided to let it go. She said she wanted to be with me, and told me she wouldn't have communication with this other guy.

Before I get to what happened last night, a little more background about this guy. Apparently this was a "friend" of hers from back in the day when she was in high school. Then one day, around 2 years ago, she decided to text him on his birthday. Ever since then, he constantly texts her with many of the texts being sexually explicit or sexual in nature. But she continued to communicate with him even though I've asked her several times to stop. Even before the new year's eve incident, she assured me she cut off all contact with him and blocked him.

Fast forward to last night. I go over to her house to celebrate my birthday with her (I planned on spending the night there last night, and celebrating with her last night and today). I was reluctant to go over today because the prior night she decided to binge drink by herself while cancelling plans we had to see each other that night. As you probably figured out, she has an alcohol abuse issue. So, I go over last night, and of course she's drunk. As I'm getting settled in, I notice her looking at her phone with this awkward guilty smile on her face. I asked her to let me see who she talking to. After some pressure, she finally admitted that it was that guy. She admitted that they didn't even use a condom that NYE night (something she lied about previously) and that she loves him. She begged me not to leave, and that she loves me and all that stuff. I told her I'd stay if she called him right then and there and ended it. She refused. I tried to leave, but she preceded to physically assault me while begging me not to leave. I told her I'd stay if she called him right there and did and ended it. She refused. When she realized her tactics to get me to stay weren't gonna work, she became more aggressive. I eventually was able to leave.

Fast forward to when I wake up today. I get a voicemail from her in which she blames me for what happened last night. All while she admits to still talking to this guy. This in addition to me having a falling out with my family because of their TDS makes this my worst birthday ever. Was it wrong of me to break up with my girlfriend because of this the night before my birthday when she bought me a bunch of presents before hand? I don't think it was.

On top of all this, I recently lost my job, so there's that too. 2021 fucking sucks for me so far, and 21 is supposed to be my lucky number.