That's what it feels like.....that's what they want you to feel. That feeling of giving up, what's the use is what all this is intended to do....break your/ our spirit. Cant do it, it's a big huge Goliath out there.....and it is scary. But the battle does not belong to the horse or the rider, but to the Lord. He has his purposes, and in his time; and his way, they will be revealed. Fall seven times get up eight. Read the account of David and Goliath. Very instructive