I used to hang out and stream video games with my friends three nights a week. Now they don't even talk to me. They bought into the propaganda. There is only so much reaching out I can do. They don't respond to my texts, respond to any of my social media posts, or even tune in when I stream alone.
Tough they've never said it, is obvious they were using the lockdowns as an excuse to avoid me. Even when my father died a few months ago, they barely reached out. I'll never be silent or censor myself for fear of how others will react... But still, it does hurt. Literally having no IRL friends is lonely.
The only remaining friends I have are rare acquaintances and people online I've never even met before. The ones with whom we share memes, and the one or two dedicated stream fans, who still ask me where the rest of my crew are.
Listen, you sound like an inside boy that spends way too much time on a computer. Guess what, that is the playground of most leftitsts. You need to better yourself, as this is a destructive hobby in the long run if you do not offset it with actual physical activity and actual face to face social activity.
You need to find an actual conservative peer group, but I'm sorry video gaming is a low testosterone hobby and they don't gravitate towards it as much. I know it sounds like I am ragging on you but I am not. I am encouraging self reflection. Not sure where to tell you to go to offset the online social life but it is something many here need to figure out.