I used to hang out and stream video games with my friends three nights a week. Now they don't even talk to me. They bought into the propaganda. There is only so much reaching out I can do. They don't respond to my texts, respond to any of my social media posts, or even tune in when I stream alone.
Tough they've never said it, is obvious they were using the lockdowns as an excuse to avoid me. Even when my father died a few months ago, they barely reached out. I'll never be silent or censor myself for fear of how others will react... But still, it does hurt. Literally having no IRL friends is lonely.
The only remaining friends I have are rare acquaintances and people online I've never even met before. The ones with whom we share memes, and the one or two dedicated stream fans, who still ask me where the rest of my crew are.
Where do y'all live? And what do you play? id gladly be your friend.
I had something similar happen to me a LONG time ago back in 2013. I had formed a clan on one game, and we had one hell of a group going. One of the members there turned out to be a massive commie and led the charge of a mutiny. He took half my clan with him, and some good friends who no longer wished to associate with me. It devistated me. And then my GF left me, and I got to the point where i had a gun pointed at my head.
never go it alone. you are NEVER alone. reach out and ask for help or a smiling face. pretty much anyone out there will talk to you. keep your head up.