You can handle this and much more. Jesus Christ has his arms around you right now. The human spirit is tough and resilient. If you need to cry, do so, if you're angry, let it out...pray without ceasing and remember that always, above all else, you matter. Take care of yourself. Get help if you need it. Your Aunt would want you to persevere through this. It will hurt for a while and you'll never forget her but you will feel better eventually. I promise. I'll pay for you.