That's THE start. I grew up in the faith, but over my earlier 20s had a real rough time growing. (Drinking, sex and chasing money wasn't as fun as I thought it would be)
All that matters is that you're here. As we all are with God. I'm rebuilding everything I know about God from the ground. But what is most fulfilling is knowing he's always in the room with me. I'm never truly "alone" ever again unless I push him out of my thoughts. I always struggled "hearing" him. But now I just say, ok God. I'm listening, what can I learn? I would like your wisdom. And he's yet to leave me empty handed. Though frequently my ego hates what conclusions he's making me draw.
This isn't exactly the position of organized religion, but here's my personal take on it based on decades in a church that challenged you to think about everything, read the whole bible, etc:
God is just. God is merciful. God would not punish someone for not being exposed to him. The only unforgivable sin is a continual (according to the greek conjugation) rejection of Christ.
I think when you die you meet Jesus. He's like "Hey man, you were a total fuckup. But I love you anyway, we cool?" and right then you get a choice. You can give him a hug or give him the finger.
I've been agnostic my whole life, but I've started praying the last couple months. It's a start.
That's THE start. I grew up in the faith, but over my earlier 20s had a real rough time growing. (Drinking, sex and chasing money wasn't as fun as I thought it would be)
All that matters is that you're here. As we all are with God. I'm rebuilding everything I know about God from the ground. But what is most fulfilling is knowing he's always in the room with me. I'm never truly "alone" ever again unless I push him out of my thoughts. I always struggled "hearing" him. But now I just say, ok God. I'm listening, what can I learn? I would like your wisdom. And he's yet to leave me empty handed. Though frequently my ego hates what conclusions he's making me draw.
I wish you the best!
Thank you, brother.
This isn't exactly the position of organized religion, but here's my personal take on it based on decades in a church that challenged you to think about everything, read the whole bible, etc:
God is just. God is merciful. God would not punish someone for not being exposed to him. The only unforgivable sin is a continual (according to the greek conjugation) rejection of Christ.
I think when you die you meet Jesus. He's like "Hey man, you were a total fuckup. But I love you anyway, we cool?" and right then you get a choice. You can give him a hug or give him the finger.