As a person, I was always pretty socially distant, but COVID-19 and all this political stuff really has hit me hard. The issue for myself is that I really just wish for the situation to pass on, for things to stop and for all of the nonsense on the left to stop.

The truth is that I don’t really have a group of friends that I can sit down with and can act with together in defense of each other. I never liked people my own age as I always found them to be immature, much preferring to talk to people like my grandmother.

Honestly, I chat on these sites, even though I know it’s unhealthy and I will have to deal with glowies, doomers, and shills. Occasionally being called one them myself because people are hard to trust (I get it, don’t trust random anons). I have tried distracting myself with work and play, but really this sense of loneliness pervades my being and a lot of it is gratified away when I read other people’s comments or they like my stuff, at the same time the root cause isn’t fixed.

This type of root cause pervades your system and causes a lot of problems, being lost in your mind without someone to help stabilize you can, we’ll make you unstable.

Without some sense of security it is very hard for people to even fight back. Fighting back alone is a task that seems impossible. I, one day, just want to be the authentic me and not be worried about all this political and social shit, while not feeling so damn lonely, except on a random website.

And no, I am not suicidal, fuck that shit, cowards way out.