My friend, who is highly conservative, had a Super Bowl party. I went because she's been my best friend forever, and because I know she put a lot of hard work into it. The party was fantastic, and we were enjoying ourselves. As the night progressed, the advertisements were pandering more and more, then the game started and we had Biden on the screen, we had the "black national anthem", and the HORRIFIC National Anthem (the one for everyone else I guess?), and of course the halftime show. I left at this point. I just emotionally broke down, I didn't say anything, I didn't let anyone know. I just feel like I cant take it. What has happened to this country? last night I felt SO ANGRY at black people. I woke up feeling the same way, and prayed that God could help me through it. I don't hate people, I feel secure in that. But last night I did. I felt like black people and blm has taken the fabric of this country and torn it to shreds. Don't be mistaken, I understand they are pawns in the grander scheme of things, I understand that there truly is a dark, sinister underground of politics that are ACTUALLY pulling the strings, but I am just so damn angry that they (and anyone else cough cough white liberals) are falling for this shit and instead of sticking up for what they know is right, they just keep fanning the flames. I dont feel "racist", I dont look at a black person and say "well fuck you too" in my head, but the SECOND that I know they are in anyway supportive of blm, im fucking out. Same with ANY. OTHER. RACE. This movement has killed our nation. I actually thought we were going to get some police and prison reform out of this, but all we get is a MASSIVE unrealistic representation of black/minorities in every social aspect of our lives, while also being told to "sit down and shut the fuck up". It's horrible, I hate carrying this in my heart. I feel wretched. I remember times when it didn't feel like this. I remember when color really didn't matter. ( I lived through the 90's which was just a fucking GREAT time to be a kid). To all you black pedes out there, im sorry if it's sore to know there are people who feel this way. I don't know what to do that will actually help, this is a disease, and if I feel like this, then I know others do and I don't think it will have a good outcome. I feel so sad for America.