The black pill is consuming me. America is dying before our eyes under tyranny and no one is stopping it. These snakes in DC are LYING and committing treason and yet they still live and breathe. I have fought with my father because he lies and repeats MSM propaganda and wont back down. My 90 year old grandfather was put in a nursing home in NYC and I can't visit him and his was given the COVID shot. My whole family and friends are liberals and are doubling down on their stupidity. Everywhere I go is woke horseshit, muh diversity, whites are bad, blacks are oppressed. Im a black woman and im invalidated because I refuse to be a victim. I'm trying to date and its all cucks and soy boys that insult me because im a patriot.
I just came home from grocery shopping and its nothing but unwashed, undocumented immigrants bringing their shitty 3rd world customs and trash to normal places. They are rude, leech off the system, babies in tow, using food stamps, treat me like shit because im black and they wont assimilate to our culture. Can't go a minute without hearing them yammering in some bullshit language on speaker phone.
Even though I am recovering from a Bone marrow transplant I have stopped wearing a mask and am ready to fight anyone that wants to question me on it. Incompetency is the new normal. Laziness is celebrated. Everyone around me, except for my doctors and nurses are complete idiots, truly low IQ. I can't even get a phone call back to let me know what time my biopsy is on Monday. What happened to professionalism?
I'm 40 years old and I feel hopeless. I have never felt like this, not even when I found out I had cancer. I try to stay optimistic but its hard when living in NYC and under tyranny, both local and federal. It's a fucking clown world and I have no one I can sit with IN PERSON and talk about this. My therapist is a Bernie bro and I can tell he checks out when I express my valid concerns about how I am treated. I have to stay silenced.
At times I wish i wasn't so strong and so optimistic about the future and humanity. I wish I was given a terminal diagnosis with nothing to lose, I would start enacting vengeance (in Minecraft, fuck you FBI).
Maybe this vent will help. Hopefully some of you have some hopium for me. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Thanks for listening.
I'm sorry you are having such a tough go right now. My husband had a 2nd stroke in March and is now back in a nursing home due to dementia. Can't visit, can't get information, so I know what you're going thru there. It is so easy to feel overwhelmed, it does feel that the whole world is upside down right now, but despite what DC and MSM is promoting, the MAJORITY of the US filled with good people who love America and her values. Please hang in there. Find a new therapist, maybe go through the church (not a woke garbage church). Find some peace at home, enjoy your music, unplug from the news cycle, read. Im trying to watch old movies, from a time when you didnt have to have know a celebrities political position. Do things for yourself. Even if you can't escape NYC you may find avenues to meet like minded people. Prayers to you.
Thank you Fren. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a strong woman. I will keep you in my prayers that you continue to have the strength to get through this trying time and pray for your husband as well. It is so cruel how they are separating loved ones. The left is truly satanic. The helpless feeling is the worst.
I am trying to hang in there, im in school right now to hopefully get into nursing school. I love humanity and want to help others. I even thought of opening my own nursing home in the future and staffing it with kind, empathetic caregivers. A place where families will know their loved one is being cared for as they would at home, a place where you can come and spend time with them because there is so much power in family, friends and human connection.
I'm pretty disconnected from the "real world", im out in nature alot, crocheting hats to give to others or making custom prayer cards that i distribute to police officers. Acts of service keep me going. It's just tough when i live in the middle of a hellscape lol. I walk out my door into clown world.
Keep hanging in there. Sending you love.
I’m sorry for what you’re going through, also. I love that you took the time to give solid advice to a fellow Pede. God bless you both.
Thank you.