You're going to have to start with small steps, and forgive yourself for not being where you want to be yet. Have faith that if you keep hammering away at it, in one year you will be in a very different place than you are now, and you will be still improving. Start by setting yourself ONE goal for each day of something you want to accomplish that you will be at least a little proud of. Try to get it done as soon as possible. Remember that when you wake up, you have that day to make it better than the previous day. Look for some motivational speakers, and find a way to make a plan, with a goal. An achievable goal. Start from there. The hardest thing is starting. Once you are moving, have faith that things will get easier, even though it seems that they will only get harder. Just tell yourself to keep having faith. And remember that you are always either going up or down, so if you are trying, and working, then no matter how small the progress, you are still going up. And if you keep on going in that direction, you WILL make it.