I have poor discipline, but I hate to disappoint people, so I structure my life so that if I don't do the things I need to do to take care of myself, I let others down. For example, martial arts classes where I help instruct, personal trainer who, despite the fact that I pay them, I hate to waste their time.I regular cook meals for a few of my elderly neighbors and I walk their dogs.

Suddenly lockdowns, no martial arts, no gym, business-owning friends in despair and needing support, trying to maintain normalcy for my children... started drinking more, ordering more food from local restaurants to deliver in the hopes of not having an utterly ruined local economy, then it became habit.

Gained weight, 25lbs, my fault. Trying to get back into a healthy routine.