At this point I think it's too late to work to save our country and even ourselves.

I seriously fucking wish I could rewind time to the beginning of 2020 and not have COVID ever be unleashed, and never have the lockdowns happen in the first place. Because life was just fine before that.

But rewinding time is impossible of course. But I am disgusted and ashamed to be apart of this now horrible era. It's like I just want to kill myself, I struggle to find any other meaningful way to escape it.

How can I escape my suicidal tendencies? Are there still things that we can do to preserve our country? Perhaps Lindell's media platform can be a game changer? I don't know. But again aside from that I'm just embarrassed to be apart of this clown world. The situation we're in is already so bad that if we don't turn it around I think I simply don't want to be apart of it anymore to the point I may just want to suicide.

And I've never been suicidal before this dictatorship came to be. Been a happy being before then. Last time I felt any sense of happiness was in New Years day.