People think that if everyone has a gun, homicides will skyrocket. This is a lie. Once you actually own a lethal device, MOST people will seek ways to not have to use it, not search for motives to destroy a life. I've owned many calibers, and didn't even fire a single bullet from most of them. I just enjoy them, from their appearance to their inner workings. They're amazing feats of engineering. Something I've learned a long time ago and still rings true: It's better to have something and not need it, than need it and not have it. If a gun is something that's hard for you to acquire, maybe it's God's way of telling you you're not ready for it. Be patient, but don't give up.