Might be worth skipping to some of the letters in the NT nearer the back.
Almost all of them have the harshest possible condemnations of false teachers. The disappointment you feel is not just you, and it's not in tension with being part of Jesus' church.
Jude is two pages of it. These sort of people get compared to comets in interstellar space, condemned to end up wandering in the blackest void for eternity, totally alone.
It's most important to read about the mercy of God which we see in the Gospels, but occasionally it's necessary for believers to be reminded that God hates evil even more than you do.
Together, it ought to make you realize the enormity of what Jesus has saved you from, and how he's blessed you by making you who you are instead of these guys.
Might be worth skipping to some of the letters in the NT nearer the back.
Almost all of them have the harshest possible condemnations of false teachers. The disappointment you feel is not just you, and it's not in tension with being part of Jesus' church.
Jude is two pages of it. These sort of people get compared to comets in interstellar space, condemned to end up wandering in the blackest void for eternity, totally alone.
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Jude&version=NIV
It's most important to read about the mercy of God which we see in the Gospels, but occasionally it's necessary for believers to be reminded that God hates evil even more than you do.
Together, it ought to make you realize the enormity of what Jesus has saved you from, and how he's blessed you by making you who you are instead of these guys.