I can't imagine living life based on what other people were thinking or doing.

"never got to experience normal male bonding"

bro sometimes I don't even know if all the people around me are even real, and I'm not just in some hell being tested by a bunch of NPCs. looking at the world outside me as a pattern for normal behavior in myself seems like a way to drive myself crazy.

acceptance comes nowhere unless you earn it by some usefulness. that's my experience. plus why should I be loved? Jesus himself got crucified in this world. at least I can prove good and useful to the world around me though.

edit: you're all human. that's it. done. stop with divisive terminology and an arbitrary matrix of predetermined lifestyles. YOU'RE YOU!