Ive been on those fake blue pills hard. I could work 80 hrs a week in the cold and not feel a thing. I wanted to buy my sons amazing Christmas presents, i wanted to by my gf a ring i love them all so much and i wanted to give them the world, and i turned into an addict.. listen, it fucking hurt soo bad for a few days now to get clean. You think you can control shit but some of the best ppl i know couldn't. Bless all of you, and happy new year, and stay safe.