Good for you, bro. I hope it helps.
I've thought about trying to go, find a church, but would feel like an imposter. Raised Christian, but have too many questions to be one, yet know there is real truth there. Also, so red pilled that relating to/interacting with normies sometimes makes me feel autistic. Haha
The Church is not for everyone, but Jesus is. There are plenty of ways for you to further your walk with God that don’t involve going to a church building. I find it interesting that when Jesus walked the earth, he never started a mega church. His main way of spreading the truth was through discipleship. He found 12 men and simply said follow me, and taught the disciples what he knew.
If you really want to further your religious understanding, find someone you respect that is walking in faith and ask them to sit down with you and share their testimony. Ask those tough questions you have and listen with an open heart. You will be amazed at what God will do when you simply ask him to show himself to you.