Ask people or read books on near death experiences.

It is a peaceful, pain free place to be. You see dead family (my dead dog! So loyal!) and don't feel pain.

In my case I was told I had to go back in mu body and inexplicably said "ok". Hard to say no to HIM.

Talk to people all the time with identical stories as mine. Minor differences - being pulled back to their body instead of "put" back. (There is always a "portal" or door somewhere.

I say this to let you know how ALIVE your mother still is. She probably hurts not being able to communicate this to you. She will be waiting for you when it is your turn (grandfather, great grandfather, dog and unknown person were there to meet me).

"Death" feels like fear because you know you will have to account to HIM. It is just an illusion in my experience. Death was so pleasant, and for a while I could think clear again and wasn't in pain.

Those left behind are sad. But then you realize how close they are to you.

Met a doctor who said in med school he had to listen to heartbeats. All he heard is lub-dub and he is supposed to hear all this other stuff.

Keeps listening and listening. Lub dub lub dub. Nothing.

Finally, one day, after weeks of listening, he hears all the indicationa of heart health.

This is how fine tuned our connection to all God's creations are. Practice listening. You will hear it. Peace floods, and comfort for pain. Tears of relief not mourning.

There is no separation after death. Just a change of chemistry.

Just listen and practice and you will feel and sense more than just your mom, but all your ancestors who live in you and are assigned by God to help you.

And all your children and grandchildren who depend on you for life.

God bless you. He is the only source of healing from great pain in my experience. He is the only one who will always listen.