I can understand you're upset, but why did you have to kill all those animals? Couldn't you have sold them on the side? Called up companies that need grass fed, grass finished animals? Butchered and frozen the meat for your own family? My grandparents ranch out in the midwest. There are definitely expenses to keeping a farm up, but they manage to do it on what little money they get from social security every month...

I'm not trying to upset you, I'm just trying to understand why you did that instead of calling around for butchers who need more animals, eating it for yourself, trading neighbors for their goods...