Keep at it, brotha, I know how hard it is (not from personal experience, but my brother). I always chuckle when people rag on doctors, and especially when they say they "do it for the money." Like you, my brother took on massive debt, just recently finished his residency and fellowship, has boatloads of school debt to pay off, and doesn't even make all that much yet, and is just about 40. Won't be a long while before he's "in the green," so to speak on his investment. Just the amount of work the poor bastard had to put in, I don't think I saw him sleep for about 15 years, constantly buried in a book, it's just insane. I've so much respect for anyone that can didicate that much time, effort, money, and just general sacrafice, for something just because it's a calling, in a way. For my brother, he just knew it was what he wanted to do, set his sights on it early in high school, and busted his ass to do it, but he sure as shit didn't do it for the money lol (not to say he won't be comfortable in some time, but it's hardly the route anyone would go if money is the only goal)