I'm torn between hope and despair. I honestly don't now what our future is but regardless I just see hard times ahead. Whether or not Trump loses its clear that Progressive/Socialists have taken over all the major institutions and are all of them are doing it for just money and power with no loyalty to our country. The past generation has failed to teach this one anything meaningful and doomed them to either be brats who cannot succeed in life or pawns to those in power who use chaos to fill their pockets. Even if Trump wins, is he just a temporary solution to a major problem that cannot be solved?

Is the culture war lost? Is civil war going to happen? Is China going to be the new Super Power of the world? Are these the end time and Jesus is coming? No nation lasts for 200 years in power and is this our time at last? I cannot speak my mind as I am abandoned by friends, stuck in a liberal minded industry, working with those who would condemn me to lose everything I worked hard for in the last ten years of my life. I am fat, I have no desire to marry or have children, I own no weapons nor am I trained in guns due to living in a blue state. I do not protest nor do I go out to change the world. Truth is I just want to be left alone and live my life in peace, but if there is no hope for that anymore then what can I do? I don't want to fight. I don't want to go out guns blazing. I just want to survive. I hear nothing be solve, nothing being done, just pandering, fear, hate, and sometimes I wish it to be over. Let everyone just kill each other and let God sort it out.

I get why they do this, the progressives. We were told the future was ours. That everything was ours to make if we did it good enough. We just weren't prepare for how hard reality was. I overcame it. I got over it. I got stronger because of it, but I am trapped in a world that rejects me. I keep hearing that there is sanity, there is good, and I am encouraged to have faith, but every day I hear doom, destruction, and the end of America every fucking day. I want to tell them no! We stand strong! We will win! There is hope and many days I feel this, but some days...some days are just too much.

What is our future? One of hope and we rise again from this dark time? A delay to the enviable collapse? Are we too weak to do anything? Is this just another nation to fall or be a lesser power like those before it? Who failed us? We did. We all did. We did this to ourselves it will be by our own hands that we failed ourselves.

Maybe I'm just stressed and depressed as I write this. Maybe I just had a bad day. Or maybe deem in my soul I'm scared and feel powerless because there is nothing I can do but vote and pray.

What is America's future? What is our future? What is my future?

I don't know.

I just hope its a good one.