I'm a ex-liberal rocker who took the redpill, hard. My whole life, something had been amiss with events in this country. I got the feeling (especially after 911) that our reality was being partitioned out to us by invisible puppet masters who control the world and it's people as one controls pieces in a chess game. Being a CA millennial with a sub-par education, I was left to my own devices to try and figure out what this force was. The man, I called him as so many others had. He was the enemy and responsible for all the world's problems. He was definitely white as well. He was a greedy racist maniac who thrived on creating chaos they could feed off of. The explanations for this state of affairs being attribute to Capitalism and the reckless profit motive of the free markets made the most sense to me. I wasn't 2% as actively engaged in politics as I am now, the goal was always to create the loudest, fastest music to ram into the man's face and knock those sons of bitches right on their ass. Lol, hindsight makes me blush sometimes; so stupid. Of course anything out of the mouths of the conservative Republicans I had been brainwashed into thinking were the enemies of humanity would just be summarily disregarded as bullshit. So when I took the redpill, I began to notice how ABSOLUTELY full of shit these scenesters are and none of them give a damn about social justice or anything other than partying, getting fucked up, spewing fallacy and engaging an animalistic behavior. I noticed there was no ethos holding these people together, if one wanted to, they could subvert these people to get them to destroy themselves with little effort. They're pathetic, godless strangers to their own goddamned selves. I regret the literal moment I ever tried to run in those circles. So yeah, now I have no friends. People I've hung with and been through shit with for over a decade won't even return a text. Yeah. Moving along to my family. I had to move back in with my mother earlier this year due to my job falling through and UI benefit STILL PENDING 3 PLUS MONTHS LATER. This is my fault, I recognize it's pathetic to live with your mom at my age and it's because I was fooled into considering the things that would have enriched me (career, stock portfolio, 401k, basic financial shit) was "evil". I now know better and I thank God and POTUS everyday for me being awake even this late in the game. I still have an opportunity to persue those things and I look forward to doing so. Anyhow, my mom suffers from bigtime TDS. She hates Orange man with a passion unlike any that I've seen and it lookss like mental illness to me. ANYTIME I bring up ANYTHING pro Trump, she loses her effing mind. It's surreal; looks like a kindergartner throwing a tantrum to me. She also hates the fact that I have guns. She projects and says that I don't take her ideas seriously when the truth is she has none. All she has are emotional meltdowns in response to the facts I provide. She is a grown women who is afraid of firearms and conversations; I've never seen anything like it. Anyway, things haven't been so great, me and my Mom used to get along fine until this political episode. It's been real cold now, we barely speak to each other and she seems to be upset at the mere sight of me. So it's like, yay America, 4th of July, freedom (I'm serious about that) but I have no one to share it with (except you pede's of course). I suppose I deserve it having pissed away most of my life and the talents God gave me on meaningless frivolity and cheap thrills. I just want a place to belong, to defend, to give my life for. I want to have children and a financial enterprise for their future. So idk if you've ever realized you were manipulated into a self destructive walk of life, to realize everything you believed was a lie; was the hardest part for me. It's hard to get up sometimes. Other times, I find myself gazing at the wall with a 1000 yard stare. Where do I begin picking up these pieces? Where do I start on the path to a better life in Christ after living how I did for so long? It's all so overwhelming sometimes. Lord give me strength. Idk what the purpose of this rant is, I guess maybe to reach out to you patriots in a similar predicament. You're not alone. Hang in there, the darkest days come just before the light. MAGA! 💥🇺🇸🤠👌🇺🇸💥