Believe me when I say I've already been there. I had nothing, no family, no friends, a job I hated that didn't even begin to pay the bills, and a massive crushing debt that weighed heavily on my chest. I felt like God had abandoned me, and I truly think I hit rock bottom. I was going to just end it all one night and finally be done with everything, and I won't lie and say I felt a heavenly presence or saw a white light, but I felt a strength inside myself like I never felt before. It was literally like something was holding my arm and I just had this clarity about what I needed to do.
It didn't turn around overnight, but I worked hard at changing my life. Now I have a wife and a daughter who I could never imagine leaving, a job I actually enjoy, and I'm chipping away at that debt I built up in what I think of as my former life. I could've declared bankruptcy on it, but it's my responsibility and I didn't take the coward's way out then so I won't do it now. I feel like he knew what I had inside of me even though I didn't, and that sometimes we need to be pushed to our breaking point to discover who we really are.
After doing all the right things, Worked mowing yards before i was 12, "real" jobs beginning on my sixteenth birthday. going to and completing College, getting married and going to work for a secure job, it all fell apart. Lost the secure job to management changes, lost the wife (and daily contact with the kids) when the money the job brought went. Couldn't work available jobs because I was over-qualified during a recession. But the kicker was getting the phone call that my ten year old son had died.
I hit the bottom of the barrel, went through it and found a cavern underneath the barrel. But strangely enough, I found faith in God stronger than my faith in self reliance.
I've got no words for that, brother. I can't imagine that level of pain, but I'm really glad you've got something to hold on to, and I hope your professional life has turned around for you. Stay strong, and remember that you're loved.
I believe that, but don't be surprised when he allows you to be tested until you don't think it is true.
Believe me when I say I've already been there. I had nothing, no family, no friends, a job I hated that didn't even begin to pay the bills, and a massive crushing debt that weighed heavily on my chest. I felt like God had abandoned me, and I truly think I hit rock bottom. I was going to just end it all one night and finally be done with everything, and I won't lie and say I felt a heavenly presence or saw a white light, but I felt a strength inside myself like I never felt before. It was literally like something was holding my arm and I just had this clarity about what I needed to do.
It didn't turn around overnight, but I worked hard at changing my life. Now I have a wife and a daughter who I could never imagine leaving, a job I actually enjoy, and I'm chipping away at that debt I built up in what I think of as my former life. I could've declared bankruptcy on it, but it's my responsibility and I didn't take the coward's way out then so I won't do it now. I feel like he knew what I had inside of me even though I didn't, and that sometimes we need to be pushed to our breaking point to discover who we really are.
After doing all the right things, Worked mowing yards before i was 12, "real" jobs beginning on my sixteenth birthday. going to and completing College, getting married and going to work for a secure job, it all fell apart. Lost the secure job to management changes, lost the wife (and daily contact with the kids) when the money the job brought went. Couldn't work available jobs because I was over-qualified during a recession. But the kicker was getting the phone call that my ten year old son had died.
I hit the bottom of the barrel, went through it and found a cavern underneath the barrel. But strangely enough, I found faith in God stronger than my faith in self reliance.
I've got no words for that, brother. I can't imagine that level of pain, but I'm really glad you've got something to hold on to, and I hope your professional life has turned around for you. Stay strong, and remember that you're loved.