What bothers me the most is thinking my black acquaintances have always felt like I was just whitey honky mc foot on my throat cracker lips and an evil white man. I thought they were friends, as much as people in different states in the same business could be at least. Now, I don't know, don't care. Won't really change things except remove the urgency that I used to help them like I did everyone else I considered friends. Oh well, not my problem.