I got out of the Navy in 2008.
I started dealing with my friends killing themselves off before I got my honorable.
I had more than enough after I was discharged.
After losing friends while active, and after they got out to suicide I swore I would keep living to honor them and live the lives they couldn't.
It is getting more difficult everyday. I'm feeling PHYSICAL PAIN from the fact that I can see data and patterns while the entire world is just giving into feelings and forgetting what happened 5 minutes ago.
I'm in the works of getting my VA disability increased because of this and extra therapy sessions, but all I get is platitudes and "just go along with it, you need your job" kind of shit.
I am SOOOOOOOO fed up with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING FED UP WITH IT.
If I were not a man of my word, I would not be here right now. I am a man of my word and I will be here until the bitter end.
I see people waking up but they're still giving into the mob.
My video games were ruined.
The live music scene was ruined.
The brewery scene was ruined.
Women were ruined.
I have nothing left, thanks to these people. Nothing by my promise.
Giving into the mob is another great way of phrasing what’s happening. Someone posted a zero hedge article here yesterday. It titled something like “when will the madness end”.
It quoted a book by Charles McKay, I think. The quote is “Men, it has been well said, think in herds; it will be seen they go mad in herds, while they only recover their senses slowly, and one by one.”
I hope you find some reassurance that there are some steadfast non herd mentality people among you here on this site. We are out in the public places, but I admit, the herd is big and may block our ability to find one another!
You have what it takes, just by virtue of acknowledging and rebuking the madness. Stay strong in your commitment to your promise. Look for those one, by one, people who will come to their senses. Hang in there and a BIG thank you for your service. I’m sure my life hasn’t had your challenges, but I assure you I’m 100% understanding of your feelings in present day. I could have written the same post with the exact same dismay and frustration.
Thank you.