I got out of the Navy in 2008.
I started dealing with my friends killing themselves off before I got my honorable.
I had more than enough after I was discharged.
After losing friends while active, and after they got out to suicide I swore I would keep living to honor them and live the lives they couldn't.
It is getting more difficult everyday. I'm feeling PHYSICAL PAIN from the fact that I can see data and patterns while the entire world is just giving into feelings and forgetting what happened 5 minutes ago.
I'm in the works of getting my VA disability increased because of this and extra therapy sessions, but all I get is platitudes and "just go along with it, you need your job" kind of shit.
I am SOOOOOOOO fed up with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING FED UP WITH IT.
If I were not a man of my word, I would not be here right now. I am a man of my word and I will be here until the bitter end.
Get your ass to a VFW, American Legion Post, contact DAV. NRA has veteran groups, Militias have heads in the game, Gun clubs, shooting ranges loaded with brothers. Remember and honor the past, but the past is not your future!
LIVE for your brightest days ahead.
The DAV was recently made my VA contact for my claims.
I was previously rated 40% and the DAV is helping me increase that claim right now.
By all I can find on 38 CFR I can easily get 100% rated.... which is great but doesn't help the problem. It only lets me take my boondocking rig and hide from the world.