I got out of the Navy in 2008.
I started dealing with my friends killing themselves off before I got my honorable.
I had more than enough after I was discharged.
After losing friends while active, and after they got out to suicide I swore I would keep living to honor them and live the lives they couldn't.
It is getting more difficult everyday. I'm feeling PHYSICAL PAIN from the fact that I can see data and patterns while the entire world is just giving into feelings and forgetting what happened 5 minutes ago.
I'm in the works of getting my VA disability increased because of this and extra therapy sessions, but all I get is platitudes and "just go along with it, you need your job" kind of shit.
I am SOOOOOOOO fed up with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING FED UP WITH IT.
If I were not a man of my word, I would not be here right now. I am a man of my word and I will be here until the bitter end.
Hey man, Many of us here feel similar to how you feel. We see what is going on in the news and media and it makes us angry that people are attacking the American way of life that has given them so much. Especially when our freedoms come at the cost of the brave men and women who paid with their health, and their lives for us. It is good that you are here in a community of American patriots who want to protect what we have and see through the bullshit. Just reading through some of the comments you can see there is a lot of support in this community so don't hesitate to reach out to any of us. We are here because we want to be around more people who get it and support each other. Have faith that we are doing what we can to turn things around for the better and that we can get there. If you ever need someone to talk to, would be happy to. All the best fellow pede.