I got out of the Navy in 2008.
I started dealing with my friends killing themselves off before I got my honorable.
I had more than enough after I was discharged.
After losing friends while active, and after they got out to suicide I swore I would keep living to honor them and live the lives they couldn't.
It is getting more difficult everyday. I'm feeling PHYSICAL PAIN from the fact that I can see data and patterns while the entire world is just giving into feelings and forgetting what happened 5 minutes ago.
I'm in the works of getting my VA disability increased because of this and extra therapy sessions, but all I get is platitudes and "just go along with it, you need your job" kind of shit.
I am SOOOOOOOO fed up with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING FED UP WITH IT.
If I were not a man of my word, I would not be here right now. I am a man of my word and I will be here until the bitter end.
I am so with you on this.
When I was in the Navy, I was told by my Psych that the point of the meds is to made therapy successful... but therapy is just talking.
It all could work, but there is no accountability. And I think if there was any accountability in the civilian world I wouldn't be posting such things because I could manage myself if I didn't have to deal with the absolute absurdity of how low the standards are across the board.
i know bud, i know. the truth is.. the fact you even reached out here is therapy in and of itself! in fact, i bet you feel way more comfortable here amongst family than some cookie cutter psych office. no doubt about it.
unfortunately, i do agree about accountability but let's be honest. if the world is designed to be so fucking lame, can we really think the regular sheeps will be able to be accountable for themselves? they don't know shit about themselves so they continue a cycle of victimhood. they care more for creating false identities, care more for material possessions, care more about social media, care more about everything but themselves! the programming is ALREADY complete for them so to waste any more of OUR energy on them is only furthering their cause!
it's the result of the way that those in power have designed this world to be! and many have fallen hook, line, and sinker brother. unfortunate but true. the fact you are even aware of this is proof you have the power on a soul level to SMASH through the PROGRAMMING hammered into ALL of us our WHOLE lives. you've begun your deprogramming, it's just a matter of focusing and grounding yourself bud.
be proud you will not allow your FREE WILL to be infringed upon because the NPC's have already given up theirs. stay true blue brother. at the end of the day, no matter whether it is the outcome we wanted, all will work out and we are all going to be where we need to be. you, me, fellow patriots, and even the loser NPC fucks. never forget and never surrender that sweet, sweet free will.
I actually feel a lot better thanks to the comments and private messages I've received. Yours included.
It's like the KGB defector said, it'll take at least 1 generation to unfuck it. So.... let's start unfucking it?
Ignorance is bliss.... But the pain of reality is the power.
i'm with you brother. big daddy trump is helping our generation to do it too.
i'll take it a step further and tell you KNOWLEDGE PROTECTS, IGNORANCE KILLS.
always strive to grow, always strive to gain more knowledge. through knowledge we are protected and through knowledge we can weed out the DISINFORMATION. the sheep love ignorance and that's why they have fallen for the liberal programming and we haven't!
i'm glad you're feeling a bit better through all of our cohesive efforts. stay true blue and much love brother.
I've been so right over the last few years it makes me question my sanity.
I can see patterns. I look at data/facts first. Feeling are irrelevant.
I was originally a bernie supporter. I wrote a lengthy post on reddit about how BERNIE AND TRUMP HAD THE SAME ISSUES THEY WERE CAMPAIGNING FOR (until bernie got the black eye)
Which is when I went full trump.
Facts > feelings. Actions > words.
Like with Tim Pool. He keeps trying to say he doesn't like trump's character but like's his policies. Tim, bro, who give's a flying fuck about someone's behavior if their actions are for the better?