I got out of the Navy in 2008.
I started dealing with my friends killing themselves off before I got my honorable.
I had more than enough after I was discharged.
After losing friends while active, and after they got out to suicide I swore I would keep living to honor them and live the lives they couldn't.
It is getting more difficult everyday. I'm feeling PHYSICAL PAIN from the fact that I can see data and patterns while the entire world is just giving into feelings and forgetting what happened 5 minutes ago.
I'm in the works of getting my VA disability increased because of this and extra therapy sessions, but all I get is platitudes and "just go along with it, you need your job" kind of shit.
I am SOOOOOOOO fed up with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING FED UP WITH IT.
If I were not a man of my word, I would not be here right now. I am a man of my word and I will be here until the bitter end.
I actually feel a lot better thanks to the comments and private messages I've received. Yours included.
It's like the KGB defector said, it'll take at least 1 generation to unfuck it. So.... let's start unfucking it?
Ignorance is bliss.... But the pain of reality is the power.
i'm with you brother. big daddy trump is helping our generation to do it too.
i'll take it a step further and tell you KNOWLEDGE PROTECTS, IGNORANCE KILLS.
always strive to grow, always strive to gain more knowledge. through knowledge we are protected and through knowledge we can weed out the DISINFORMATION. the sheep love ignorance and that's why they have fallen for the liberal programming and we haven't!
i'm glad you're feeling a bit better through all of our cohesive efforts. stay true blue and much love brother.
I've been so right over the last few years it makes me question my sanity.
I can see patterns. I look at data/facts first. Feeling are irrelevant.
I was originally a bernie supporter. I wrote a lengthy post on reddit about how BERNIE AND TRUMP HAD THE SAME ISSUES THEY WERE CAMPAIGNING FOR (until bernie got the black eye)
Which is when I went full trump.
Facts > feelings. Actions > words.
Like with Tim Pool. He keeps trying to say he doesn't like trump's character but like's his policies. Tim, bro, who give's a flying fuck about someone's behavior if their actions are for the better?
i fell for the liberal programming through my early years as well bud. i felt the same about bernie but recognized he was nothing but another sellout. i took the red pill and never looked back.
all that matters is that we have come to see the truth and the hypocrisy in the lies being fed to the masses.
i will always trust a crass man who follows through with action than a polite man who falls to inaction. you're exactly right, actions over words. and that's a life lesson too.
you are not going insane, you are GROWING. the reality we've been fed is breaking apart and MORE people are beginning to see this. those who are not seeing the lies are imho, a lost cause. those in control are LOSING control and frantically scrambling to remain in control (think covid, race bullshit).
again, you are not going insane and are in fact, more sane than MANY others. you, me, all of us together are GROWING and breaking free! i felt like i was going insane as the TRUE reality unfolded before my eyes but that too shall pass and the light will be shown before you. trust the process and allow yourself to experience these dark nights because again, the light WILL come through. til the end brother.