I got out of the Navy in 2008.
I started dealing with my friends killing themselves off before I got my honorable.
I had more than enough after I was discharged.
After losing friends while active, and after they got out to suicide I swore I would keep living to honor them and live the lives they couldn't.
It is getting more difficult everyday. I'm feeling PHYSICAL PAIN from the fact that I can see data and patterns while the entire world is just giving into feelings and forgetting what happened 5 minutes ago.
I'm in the works of getting my VA disability increased because of this and extra therapy sessions, but all I get is platitudes and "just go along with it, you need your job" kind of shit.
I am SOOOOOOOO fed up with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING FED UP WITH IT.
If I were not a man of my word, I would not be here right now. I am a man of my word and I will be here until the bitter end.
There are a lot of folks who smoke weed to a point that if drinking or other drug use were the same, would be a huge problem. Because weed is so benign... they just give the rest of us a stigma.
It's hard to find meaningful interactions these days. I realized it before I woke up.
In high school, I'd skip and go on campus to the local univeristy and make friends.
When I came home from the navy in 2008, everyone was already on their phones a lot. They were less friendly.
It was another 5 years until it became clear why.
Internet and Smart Phones, two biggest socially disruptive forces in human history, one right after the other. They tag teamed the shit out of our culture, and we were not ready.
Back in the early 2000s I was constantly ranting to people about how dangerous Facebook was, how for the first time in all of human history, we were allowing a for-profit corporation to insert itself as an additional layer between peoples personal relationships.
"But my friends are on Facebook."
This baseball bat swinging straight for our collective noggin was easy to see coming, but the average person couldn't avoid it. Because they'd already been deprived of community by that point, and were desperate for something to replace it with.
Like you said, this crap has been a long time in the making. If you've never seen the famous Yuri Bezmenov interview, it might be worth a watch.
Facebook was fine when it was social media.
It became a problem when it became social conditioning.... and too many pedes are ok with it all while they still get their doritos and mtn dew... we can just complain online! It'll totally save my job today to be taken in a few months!
Here's the thing, though, and interviews have been done with Facebook execs from back in the startup days proving it: Facebook was always social conditioning. It was entirely deliberate, the mechanism so innocuous as to seem harmless. The Like. They knew the neurochemical science behind it, basically hacked everyone's brains to associate Facebook with good feelings.
Notice there is no dis-like, on Facebook? That simple little change, made Facebook one of the most powerful organizations in human history. Easy to like, simple click. Hard to dislike, have to leave a comment. Ensures more good reactions than bad, good reactions=dopamine hit, next thing you know, Facebook addicts. Brilliant, really. And completely evil.
Have a good night, man. I've got to sign-off so I can work in the morning.
Thanks for joining and helping my sanity.
I'm looking forward to my appointments this week. They either need to accept I'm insane and have 34 years of false memories or the whole world is crazy.