I have no hobbies, no vested interest into anything, and if you were to browse my post history you’d see I’m a blatant hypocrite who has no idea what to do with himself. All I do is spend my days watching porn or inviting people over for casual sex (which I don’t end up going through with it because it’s against my values) For an alternative, I’d want God to help me find an angel with whom I could live out the rest of my life with, but that’s not going to fucking happen, he doesn’t care about me. God dammit.
Where to start?
First, make sure you have the # to the suicide hotline. 24/7.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
Now, let's take this apart.
If you want to change your life, you'll need a dose of reality.
You said you don't have hobbies. You do have a hobby -- part of the problem is that your hobby is sex.
Stop watching porn.
Stop even thinking about casual sex or someone else to distract you from your problems.
I seriously think porn programs you to be depressed.
About God. Others may have a different view, but I'm offering mine, which some will say is heretical.
God is not a person. The one true God has no inherent form. He -- or it -- just Is. We exist inside God. God, or the Universe, Divine Intelligence, Force for Good -- whatever you want to call God, is too great for us to comprehend fully.
And there is nothing outside God. Therefore, God cannot not care about you as you are part of God.
I don't believe in Jehovah -- that's Old Testament stuff.
But that's just me. I mean, Jehovah exists, but Jehovah is not God. Might have been an alien -- I don't know.
Jesus Christ, however, is God manifest on the earth. God in human form. This was done to show us how to transcend worship of deities and to become like Christ ourselves -- healing, being seen in two places at once, the power to heal and to destroy, mastering the elements, and more.
Ask Christ to come into your life and wipe away the sadness. Ask Christ to rewrite your programming and help you find happiness.
When you surrender to Christ, you are asking for the Universe (God) to upgrade you. Upgrade everything about you. Rewire you.
Where to start?
First, make sure you have the # to the suicide hotline. 24/7.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
Now, let's take this apart.
You said you don't have hobbies. You do have a hobby -- part of the problem is that your hobby is sex.
Stop watching porn.
Stop even thinking about casual sex or someone else to distract you from your problems.
I seriously think porn programs you to be depressed.
Start checking out these guys -- they have free volunteer peer counselors: https://freeonlinetherapy.org/
God is not a person. The one true God has no inherent form. He -- or it -- just Is. We exist inside God. God, or the Universe, Divine Intelligence, Force for Good -- whatever you want to call God, is too great for us to comprehend fully.
And there is nothing outside God. Therefore, God cannot not care about you as you are part of God.
I don't believe in Jehovah -- that's Old Testament stuff.
But that's just me. I mean, Jehovah exists, but Jehovah is not God. Might have been an alien -- I don't know.
Jesus Christ, however, is God manifest on the earth. God in human form. This was done to show us how to transcend worship of deities and to become like Christ ourselves -- healing, being seen in two places at once, the power to heal and to destroy, mastering the elements, and more.
Ask Christ to come into your life and wipe away the sadness. Ask Christ to rewrite your programming and help you find happiness.
When you surrender to Christ, you are asking for the Universe (God) to upgrade you. Upgrade everything about you. Rewire you.
Read the New Testament. A lot.
And post back here if you need encouragement.