Was productive at the beginning of all this bull shit but slipped hard into depression. I miss my Job so fucking much its killing me. I'm now part time at home depot making in two weeks what I'm used to making in a day, and there is no sign of my industry coming back before 2021. Going back to retail after being successfully self employed in a field I love for a decade is humbling to say the least.
I had a calling out of nowhere to pick up the bible for the first time a few days ago. I finished the book of Mark and and plowing through Luke. I also watched the documentary Belly of the Beast: Directors Cut which really put me on course to believe this is a battle of good and evil and our President was chosen by God to fight this evil.
I joined a Gym yesterday and lifted for the first time in 10 years. Went back today and did not skip leg day. I'm sore, and tired, but that negative voice in my head that has been saying the worst shit to me over and over and over again the last few weeks has been silenced since my first set at the gym yesterday.
Just wanted to share with some people who would understand. I fucking love this place.
Thanks Frens.
EDIT: Thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and kind words. I love you all.
Isn't amazing how out of the blue, the Call shows up. I find Kings pretty applicable to modern times,
I had it pretty hard too, self owned business. I almost didn't make it through May. Things are 1000× better than at the start. Less and less people are believing this bullshit.
I'll hop on Kings after Luke! Yeah it's really strange, I was an uninformed athiest all my life and then 2016 hit and everything started to change for me and all of a sudden the bible just started calling to me. I really don't understand it but I really like it.
Glad things are going better for you my friend!
Check out David Limbaugh’s books too. I read Emmaus Code and The True Jesus. I found them to be really good to provide context and the overarching story that the Bible is telling. I’ve read bits and pieces of the Bible randomly for over 30 years and, while that isn’t really a bad thing, you might get a lot more out of it if you’re familiar with the bigger picture. Stay strong!
Just ordered The True Jesus. Thanks for the recommendation, will be diving into that when it gets here!